Mrs. Worrier

Our hands clench together my heart beats faster, his cheek rubs mine, and eye's close with anticipation, he kisses my forehead and everything turns out to be okay.
I give everything over to you Lord

I'm Quite All Right

It is Friday.
I don't know where my week went. I found myself trying to get by. Try to get through work, so I can get home and sleep.
All I have wanted to do is sleep. I have wanted to swallow myself hole and not wake up- for a second. I'm up. Seeing myself trying to get by once again. My room has clothes on the floor. My car, I cleaned it. Me? I Need improvement. I got up this morning at 11:23. Went down stairs, ate. Laid on the couch and I was out. It is 4:29 now. All I want to do is sleep. I'm going out tonight. Exciting right? Sure. I am going dancing... there is supposed to be some amazing dance off's that I really don't want to miss. I want to sleep right now, I'm tired. Or maybe I'm just sick and tired. Sick and Tired. "Who will love me for me, not for what I've done or what I will become." That's the song that echo's in my head. I am in my blue and white stripped skirt, and my white shirt. My hands are weak, my face looks different to me, who is it? My white socks are the only things I approve in this thoughtless room. "I will love you for you." The song plays on. Why do the things that hurt me, the ones that will leave scares, inspire me? It's so permanent. I need something permanent right now. I burned all the ropes that will connect me to some kind of security, and now I'm left with a foggy perception of everything. Everyone. And I laugh now, to think that there is, "No benefit in talking to me." I laugh again. Thank you. Has anyone told you, you hurt? "I will love you for you, not for what you have done, or what you will become." Don't worry. I'm quite all right.
I give everything over to you Lord

Dream

I was told to dream big.
If I told someone my dream and they didn't laugh, I was said I needed to dream bigger.
Then I thought again, I don't have a huge dream. I have 100's of little dreams, but non that would make someone laugh.
I want to learn how to dream big. Well, not learn, but actually do it.
I give everything over to you Lord

Philippians

I have been reading and writing on Philippians, well I'm basically down now, but it has been an awesome eye-opener. Seriously, I have let allot of things go from reading this book of the Bible, and I have come to knew and better understandings of life. I have lost more friends than I have gained, and I can still smile and move on with my life. I don't know if you would call it... Not caring, but, I would reassuringly say, I am following the Lords will. Whether it appears that way or not. I am satisfied, but even more so I'm content. Dive into Philippians, even if you have read it before. Go into it with an open mind.
I give everything over to you Lord

LongInLogOut

I logged in, but there is nothing to say besides the empty thoughts that haunt my head. Yet I am doing better than you will ever think. I am blessed, I am happy, I am thankful.. You can only see what you choose, the "Problems" I have. I laugh.

Mommy

I was bugging my mom when I got home and she made me laugh when she said, "Sheena, stop being a pill!"
Then she was walking out the house to run so errands, and said, "Oh my gosh, why does it have to be so freaky hot outside!"
Her expressions crack me up!

Starbucks

I was sitting in Starbucks reading my bible and these two little boys walked in with their mom. I looked over and one of the little boys leaned to the other and said, "Well maybe if you were rich you could get a wife." I was so sad when I heard this. Although some people might have just laughed, I was taken back. How did this little boy possibly get the idea that money equals marriage, or possible happiness? Parents? Television? Friends?
I give everything over to you Lord