The Twist

There is a certain beauty that it formed when pearls are mixed with diamonds. It's the combination of the older more vintage style pearls bring, melted with the frosted touch of the modern and classy diamonds. Pearls are a gem, and diamonds are the "forever friend." 

 I give everything over to You Lord 

Surgical Success

So I'm home from surgery now! I got to the out patient facility just yesterday at 7 and I was nervous, but being there and just going through the process relaxed me a little. I was ready to do the surgery!

I put my robe on, and the little booties on my feet and peed in a cup. (Always the worse part!) They sat me in a back room with a few other people and they put an IV in my left arm, a warmed blanket over my body, and a scrub hat over my hair. After that I had to wait for a little so they called Daniel back to hang out with me until I went in the actual surgical room. It put me more at ease.

A nurse walked me in the surgical room, so Dan left, I saw the doctor, anesthesiologist, and two other nurses. All I remember is the anesthesiologist saying this medical might hurt your vain. It went in and I said, "Ouch, that's hurts". Next thing I knew I was drowsy and I just told myself, "I better close my eyes now." I was OUT! 

Next thing I know I was in the recovering waking up and crying. I was just so out of it and my body just felt all funny. I became more conscious and they let Dan come back and help give me water. The first couple sips I choked because I never had my throat open so wide. Then, Dan left the room, the nurse helped me get dressed and then stuck me in a wheel chair and road me out to the car. Got in and I was off to the comfort of my home. 

Since I've been home I've really done nothing but sleep and drink as much water as I can. Watched some game shows and checked my favorite blogs. It was so sweet though, my sister come over and brought me two get well balloons, an adorable stuffed penguin (In the picture above) and the movie The Blind Side. So sweet! Also, my friend Josh came to visit and brought me beautiful sunflowers and they just brighten up the living room. Thanks Rae and Josh! Daniel has been so good at taking care of me, it's been such a blessing. He brought me a little get well balloon, pickles before surgery because I was CRAVING them so bad, helped me clean my room so that I would be able to sleep good at nights, helps me stand up, gets me water all the time and even rubs my feet and neck. Wow! Awesome best friend for ya, agreed?! 

So recovery time will be a process and my throat will hurt and feel better and hurt again, but did you catch the first part? I'm RECOVERING! I'm so happy to be getting better. 

I give everything over to You Lord

Health Crisis

    Growing up, I've always felt like I've had a ton of health problems. From my skin being so sensitive and itchy (that it bleeds because I itch it so hard) to bad head aches and random sicknesses that left my in the hospital a few times. Two major things that have been predominate throughout the years have been my skin issues and throat problems. 

    I've woken up with welts on my legs, for no apparent reason, I have gotten shingles, a painful painful experience. I've gotten a staff infections right after I got shingles. I have had ringworm, or so they tell me. Rashes on my arms with little red bumps that itch constantly. My legs itch everyday all the time, no exaggeration. I have had rashes behind my knees and on my thighs. I have stayed up all night crying from my legs itching so bad. I have tried a least a dozen itch creams, I have also tried using Aquaphor, Cediphil, Pure Coconut Oil, ASAP with silver in it (this silver doesn't stay in your body though, after two days it will be gone) and the most recent one is E45 Cream. It's a lotion for Europe that's made with lanolin (Sheep's skin) and it takes around 28 days to get to my house after ordering. It's been helpful for making my skin less dry at least. I have scratched and itched my legs for so long that there are scares everywhere on my legs. I can write almost every one of my skin problems in about 10 minutes but this stuff has happened over a span of almost 21 years and it's been so frustrating, discouraging and tiring to deal with. I haven't see how much of a burden it's been on my life until recently, as I'm getting older. I notice things in my life that are getting effected by this. I want my skin to be normal. 

That's my skin rundown, now here's my throat problems. I've gotten strep throat quite a bit growing up which always triggered my tonsils to flare and enlarge a little bit. When I was 16 I got mononucleosis and was unable to do anything for a month. My parents were out of town and my sister was taking care of me along with Mrs. Cary. (P.S. Thanks for your homemade chicken soap, it was wonderful!) We thought I just had a really bad cold, but I couldn't move my head very well, and my throat was in so much pain. When my parents got home they took my to the hospital that same night because my tonsil's were the size of golf balls. And my throat was closing. Every since then I got these little white things that would come out of my tonsils and I never knew what they were, but didn't really try to find out either. Now 2 months ago my sister got married and I'm so happy I made it. A few week before the wedding I got really sick and my tonsils were huge and the swelling never went down. Three days before her wedding I went to the hospital to find out that I had Chronic Tonsillitis. That really just means your tonsil's get huge and hurt and it keeps on reoccurring but your throat won't ever fully shut. But it really gets close. Even though the problem is technically in your throat, my tonsillitis has really taken a toll on my body. It has worn me out so much. It has been almost 4 months now that my tonsils have been horribly painful, enlarged, and uncomfortable. I am getting surgery tomorrow to get them removed. I am scared beyond belief but I want these golf ball sized tonsil's out of my mouth and out of my life forever. They have caused me so many problems, so many tears, so much time out of my life that I'm ready to get them out. I'm so afraid of being put under, and even more afraid because they tell me this is a VERY painful surgery. And then remind me again that it's extremely painful. I'm nervous and I just pray that this goes by so fast. I want to be healed already and I haven't even gotten the surgery. I want to be healthy for a day. 

I give everything over to You Lord 

Follow Her

   My cousin Danielle just recently got a blog. She has such a beautiful heart! If you want to follow her or check out her blog just click http://daniellelarsen.blogspot.com/

Be blessed!

I give everything over to You Lord

Growing Up So Quick..

Yet oh so young.

It's an interesting transition when I feel like I'm really young, which, I still am, but at the same time I'm going to my friends housewarming parties, people I grew up with are getting married, and people are graduating from college? I remembered when I was younger and wanted to do things that were mature and showed my young adult independence. But it's weird, now, when I got out to lunch with my mom we aren't just small talking, but instead we're talking about my future and the steps I need to be taking to start my own business. Strange feeling, but I'm overwhelmed with excitement.

I have always wanted to start my own business but somehow pushed it to the back of my mind because it seems so unattainable because of the amount of work that's necessary for my dream to become a reality. So I listened with open ears to my mom as she suggested tips and ideas that I should start working on now. She called it my "To do list." Very proper I suppose, and a "to do list" I must do!

So planning the next 5 or so years of my life out makes me nervous knowing everything I will face. But I'm ready to face it. Well, not everything, but at least I'm ready to face my to do list! I'm going to be turning 21 in 2 months and I'm excited to start planning a future! I've always wanted to start young! Here I come!

I give everything over to You Lord

More Beautiful You

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

Jonny Diaz

I give everything over to You Lord

This Little One

... is quite possibly the best thing in life that's happen to me thus far. She brings such a joy to me. And she has such good parents. Her smile lights up the room in 1.1 second! She's precious.

I give everything to You Lord