A Heart To Serve - Wildly, Passionately, Eternally

I had the privilege of being recorded for a piece that was shown at my church - City of Grace. This video was, unexpectedly, really challenging for me to film. I am extremely passionate about serving and I have served at my church, in the youth ministry, for the past 8 years. I have been a part of the same ministry for a total of 11 years. So when asked how serving in the ministry has impacted my life - a flood of emotions and memories came rushing back. I have had to sacrifice so much throughout my life to remain consistent with serving. I have lost friendships, a romantic relationship, I gave up outside activities, lost sleep, comforted broken hearts late at night, all with the purpose of remaining faithful to my church and my relationship with God. My desire has been to mimic the heart of Jesus - His love, His care, His faithfulness, and His sacrifice.

Here is a look into my life and my journey of serving - one of the toughest most rewarding parts of my life!

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I give everything over to You Lord

Being Cautious

Season 1 Episode 3 "Cautious"

{And this part of my life I call Workin' It Out}

Recently I have been feeling drawn to seek wise council about unanswered questions in order to be cautious about the direction I am heading. I have been talking to those who know me best and really trying to hear God's voice through their advice and guidance. I don't want to get to a state where I am so cautious that I can't enjoy the blessings God has placed in front of me. Instead finding a balance of Godly council and actually living out my walk with God, trusting that He will guide my path as I follow after Him. My desire is to please God and bring honor to Him through my life.

I want to do things right. Relationally, friendships, education, ministry and family. I have noticed myself being more guarded lately, in order to avoid any hurt. Although, mentally I know that is a destructive way of living and thinking, I have been fighting against the trap of shutting people out. I want to be vulnerable because I know how much benefit it is to have honest people living life. Even if it is a little messy at times, honesty is appreciated by God which means I am learning daily how to appreciate it in the same way as He does.

I have been feeling this desire to break through the dark cloud that has been following me for quite some time. I don't want any fear based relationships or hidden secrets. I want an honest jab at a healthy, flourishing, productive and stable relationship. Something that has always been a desire of mine. So as I work through my journey of asking questions and seeking out answers, as well as forming God honoring relationships with people, I will do the things that can not fail me. I will still keep falling madly in love with my God. I will still live each day with a passion to pursue God. I will still bow my knees in prayer. I will read the Bible with an open heart. I will lead by example and walk by faith. I will keep pouring into the lives that God has allowed me to, while still staying humble enough to be poured into and molded as well. I love my God, I am thankful for my life. I worship a Mighty King!

I give everything over to You Lord