Nip & Tuck - Image Obsessed

While being surrounded by an image obsessed world, it is hard not to fall snare to the lies and the desire for (perceived) "perfection." I've written about and spoken with several people about body image and the struggles that most of us face when it comes to obtaining this unrealistic goal of beauty. It is not just a girl thing. It's a human thing. Girls try to slim down, guys try to bulk up - you know, typical stereotype stuff.

I have mentioned in my spoken word, briefly, about my struggles with my image. But if I'm honest with you, I have researched costs for liposuction, tummy tucks, boob lifts, teeth whitening, and unfortunately, lots more ridiculous "Body Enhancements," aka. plastic surgery. Sounds crazy to some - but in a world where I can't go a day without seeing the "ideal" girl on a Billboard, Internet ad, Television show, Magazine cover, Movie or walking down the street, it is hard not to let the "You're not good enough," thoughts cross my mind. Maybe a little nip and tuck is the perfect solution?

It would be my great pleasure to share how I've overcome and conquered my worries, insecurities, and body image issues, but unfortunately, I'm still working on finding freedom from destructive thoughts. I have not arrived - I know - shocking!

But, on my journey to finding peace and contentment with my body, I have decided to unveil my insecurities and share them with you. Come on, who doesn't like the feeling of being exposed and vulnerable? (And to the few people who don't mind it - you are a braver soul than I!)

I have a weakness for visual expression, so I decided that the best way to bare my soul for all to see, is to create a video that embodies my struggle and my fight! I am combining music, still photos and video footage to speak the message that my heart still wrestles with.

My hope is to encourage the person who feels shame, disgust, frustration and discouragement when they look in the mirror. I also hope that you will come along my journey while I continue to redefine how I see myself. I'm working on rewiring my thoughts - if you are doing the same, cheers! You are not alone!

I give everything over to You Lord

Butterflies

Season 1 Episode 2 "Butterflies"

{And this part of my life I call Friendship}

Have you ever felt like you knew someone for years after meeting them for the first time? Well, how about knowing someone for years except feeling like you don't know them at all? In your lifetime you will probably never have two friends who are exactly the same. Some you may be able to build a deep and personal relationship with, while others may be fleeting friends who never get to know the real you. Either way we will all at some point experience friendship, bad or good, meaningless or quality.

Often times I feel like it is easier to either be friends that don't really know much about each other or be in a relationship and skip the whole friendship part. Although, it is only within the past few weeks that I have grown a deeper appreciation for the true meaning of friend. And even though I still feel like I am working on what it means to be a friend at all times, I am learning to love the in between stage. Where it isn't quite acquaintances and still to far from relationship, but smack dab in the middle of em' both! The process of what it really means to learn about someone and understand how they operate is often times overlooked and seldom a priority.

I have been able to see friendship as a very powerful force in this world. I have seen friendships save lives. I have seen friendships encourage. I have seen friendships turn into prayer worriers, and an unstoppable forces of God. Friendships can be taken advantage. They can be ruined and destroyed. They have the ability to build up a generation that is made to be an agent of change. Friendships are important.

So as I embark on my "Episode 2" of seeking to understand friendships in a different light, I give Glory to God that He has been my sole reasoning in trying to learn when He has planned in the stage of Friendship!

I give every to You Lord

ABOUT.ME

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God Breathed Life Into Me

I am passionate about living & passionate about God, people, dance, photography, art, writing, creating, spoken words, music, and relationships. I get inspired by the uncommon and always try to listen for where God is leading me. I feel lucky to have my life, solely because I get to be molded, grow, encourage, achieve, accomplish, fail, try again, succeed, learn, forget, forgive, remember, and know who I am as a child of a King, a sister, friend, best friend, aunt, cousin, daughter, co-worker, crew member, youth leader and as ME! I really don't know much about anything, but I have the desire to become knowledgeable about most things! I am excited to live and can't wait to do great things in this World!

"My flesh may fail, but God you never will!"

I give everything over to You Lord