Standing Still & Waiting

At one point I stood still in the crowd at the Hillsong concert, I just attended. I could literally feel the excitement run through my blood stream. My dreams and visions flashed before me. The art, design, music, and lights on the stage set fueled even more thoughts and ideas within me. My passion was met with a flood of inspiration. I am trying to find a beautiful balance between staying consistent with what is in front of me while also looking ahead to what doors are opening in the future. I often feel antsy with where I am in life. There is this undeniable urge for adventure. To experience something new and to see the world around me. This whole post may sound cliché, but I have been feeling like I want to start and build and pursue my dreams. I have an itch to encounter something unfamiliar, something new and uncertain. I feel like there is something awaiting me that is just around the corner, but I am blind to what it is. I have no idea what the next season of life looks like, but I have tons of things stirring inside me.

While I am ready to embark on the next journey that is ahead of me, I have noticed that some of my thoughts have been making me feel a little "tied down." I want to start an Urban Art Center, I want to reach the lost and broken people, I want to dance again, I want to travel to different states or different countries, but I can't help but feel a little less excited knowing I will be doing it on my own. I so desperately want my best friend to do all of these things with me. & When I say "best friend" I really mean husband. I just want to collide ideas with someone who is just as passionate and thrilled about living this life intentionally and having fun along the way. I am not the kind of girl to "wait around" for a guy (as I mentioned in my previous post), but I can't help but feel a desire to work hand in hand with my best friend and to do each life adventure together.

Nevertheless, I know that there is a flood gate of opportunities that lay before me that always remind me to refer back to my life motto. "Faithful in the small, expectant for the big." I value consistency in others as I also try to remain a person of consistency. I am attempting to do this by being consistent in everything that is currently in front of me. The ministry opportunities I have, the friends I have, the family I have, the job I have, the dance community I know, the personal growth I am encountering, and the Biblical and speaking training I am receiving, to name a few! I have been prayerfully trying to figure out the "next step" in my future. If I think to long about it I get all confused and anxious, so I am always learning how to let go and let God take the lead.

I give everything to You Lord