Sometimes I need to step away from writing to mentally process and chew on my thoughts. I more often then not sit and just have time to self reflect. The usual scan of my amazing God, dreams, passions, being an influence, school, boyfriend, family, junior high small groups, my job, my car, photography, Alice and Sheryl Cooper, my niece India, my flat feet and consequently my lower back pain, fears, struggles, my always low gas tank, music, inspiration, coffee, gluten free food, miles on my car, calories, church, future plans, dance, and about everything in between. I hope it's evident enough to see the broad span of thoughts I have in just short periods of time.
I have major question about life. Things that God can only answer, an it makes me anxious in a healthy excited way. Although having patients has been quite annoying for the most part. I really want my "forever" to start. My career and other future plans. But I often remind myself that "getting there," whatever my destination holds is going to be most important to live the process and not jump to the conclusion. God puts much value into the process because, like my mother has always told me, God is concerned with our character and our relationship with Him.
I feel like my heart has just been tossed and turned this month, maybe it's been longer, but I refuse to be weak at times for fear that I can't show my strength. A struggle I battle with.
I have a lot of unsettled thoughts, emotions, concerns and prayers. I'm wrestling with life and I think I might be missing that God is an amazing champion of concurring the seemingly impossible.
I give everything over to You Lord
