More Beautiful You

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

Jonny Diaz

I give everything over to You Lord

This Little One

... is quite possibly the best thing in life that's happen to me thus far. She brings such a joy to me. And she has such good parents. Her smile lights up the room in 1.1 second! She's precious.

I give everything to You Lord

Symphony

I performed at the Phoenix Symphony this past Sunday, and it was great. Not the actual show, or the standing ovation, or the chance to be part of such a cultural experience but a simple question that was asked to me. A girl Lindsey asked me, "Sheena, before the performance, can you pray with me that the show will go well?" I looked in amazement and said with no hesitation YES! I can't believe that I've made an impression on these girls at dance enough to want to pray with me. So as we nervously awaited our 'Q' to go on stage Lindsey grabbed my hands and said, "Let's pray!" So I did, I prayed and she hugged me and said, "Okay! I think we can do this!" 

People wonder, after a few horrible rehearsals, and mess up's after mess up's how we possibly pulled the show off with only minor mistakes. I don't have to wonder at all. Because I prayed for a show like that before we even started! 

It was just amazing, though, that someone wanted to pray with me. I have never forced my "religion" on anyone, never said your bad if you don't go to church or pray, but simply have been trying my best to live it out, and believe it or not, the Light really does shine through.

I give everything to You Lord 

(Lord, Your cool!)

Now Presenting Mr. and Mrs...

I knew wedding stresses were real and overwhelming for the "Bride to be," I just didn't know the wedding stresses would leak in the lives of everyone. Call me ignorant! My world seems to be flipped upside down. 

Between managing school, dance, boyfriend, church and youth, cleaning up my fair share of the house, living with three other women who have equally as much to worry and cry about, it seems that taking a breath would waste to much time. 

While my head spins in a downward spiral my body decides, "hey, not a bad idea!" Now, I'm sick. I have glans the size of gulf balls, nose that won't come unplugged, and my favorite-- bed ridden because of cramps. Sorry to be so graphic, but let's be real, sometimes life just happens that way. It never seizes to amaze me though, how life happens all at the same time... every time! 

Now, don't get me wrong, I know this wedding of my sisters is going to be an absolutely joyous occasion but from the preparation of family flying in, to their actual arrive, to the last minute studying, it's a bit overwhelming to say the least! Also, just because I thought it might be nice to stay sane during the wedding I need to make sure that I'm emotionally, mentally, and physically prepared as well. Sounds extreme but I know for a fact it is necessary.

Daniel and I have been pulled and stretched to grow during this whole thing but it just adds so much tension not being able to hang out without thinking about the three page to-do list tucked away in my back pocket. I just want to spend time with him. Also his birthday is coming up fast and I want to make it special but it's so hard when his birthday is on the same day as we wedding rehearsal. I'm just one girl. This is hard.

I'm fearful to admit that I've been relying on my own strength but unfortunately, I have been. It's so hard not to get into that list mentality and just simply try to check everything off a list. I know this is just days in my vapor of a life, but I continually get to the edge of my breaking point and stare it straight in the eyes. I need a vacation! 

I give everything over to You Lord -- Or at least I'm trying too 

Isn't it Interesting...

Google gives you these options? Sad. 

I give everything to You Lord

TO DO list:

I have so much homework I have to do. It's horrible. I realized I'm lacking a social life, more and more. Beautiful thing about school is it ends one day. Can you tell I'm excited?! I don't feel well either. I've been dizzy and nauseous. Appetizing I know. The bright side of my day was my 92% on my mineral test in Geology today. Not half bad! The silly things in life. Oh Letter-grade, you've caused me so much stress. Thanks for paying off! 

I give everything over to You Lord

Nike Shoes Made to Praise God

"I'm taxi to Kentucky where they don't even know all about me. 

I just need'a feel safe. 

I got thousands of sweaters, shoes, and painting to hide.

 Skeletons in my bed. I'm goin away"

So I'm on this journey. I never saw coming. I've met more people that are famous then I ever thought I would. And there is even more to come. The people that supposedly live the LIFE. Money, V.I.P parties, the flashy clothes, the ideal life, several people dream to have. I've met, hugged, shook hands, and taken pictures with these pop icons and unfortunately the word that could best describe the experience is disappointment. Cause when it comes down to it, and you look at these humans who have regret and failures, successes and accomplishments just like all of us...Their fame fizzles to nothing. Reality hits when I see them backstage getting ready to perform, just like me, and their not on TV or videos, they're face to face with me? Through the meeting and greeting of these legends, icons, and people of high prestige, I have the strongest desire to stay humble. To never let the cameras, fans, treatment, or "fame" ever get to my head. To never view myself above anyone. To always remember I'm here because this is simply my journey. Where I am is where I am, and through it I only want to be the best example I can be. I know I've burned some chances to be an example, but I don't want to give up on trying. People have told me that "I'm different then everyone else. Down to earth and caring like they've never felt." That's what I want. I want people, famous or homeless to see the God's light beaming through my every action. Hard but not impossible. In fact, I've put a lot of thought into this topic, aside from writing, and to be honest, when I meet and perform it never seems to match the feeling I get when I'm worshipping God by myself. Eye's closed, on my knees, with hands raised. Matchless feeling. I can't wait to see the doors open or if it's in my journey to watch doors close. All I know at this point is that God has big things planned. 

I WILL ALWAYS BE GOD'S PERFORMER BEFORE THE WORLDS PERFORMER

I give everything over to You Lord