She Will Know

    It scares me to think she does this out of her lack of daddy. It scares me to think this is how she's choosing to spend her free will. So I wonder if her smiles are even real, or if she knows how bad she's hurting. I know exactly how it feels to want to do something to yourself that's harmful, and to know you need help, but want to do it anyway. She doesn't need someone to abandon her and point out the sin in her life. Let's wake up and smell the coffee, we are all sinners. She doesn't need a long lecture about what lasting effects this will have on her body. She doesn't need to be babied or held by the hand, because she chooses her choices knowing full well of the consequences. No in fact, she doesn't need rehab or a shrink. She doesn't need to see a psychiatrist and doctors wont do the trick. She's knows what she's doing is wrong, but how long will her memory last. I fear that she will miss the reason of life. The reason of breath. No she might not die from this, and come on, it's "just a phase." She may get on the plane and fly far away. She may keep up this nonsense and end up senseless. Perhaps she may choose to crawl in bed with him, but she knows what she's choosing. Her talent abounds understanding and she has yet to be understood. Still, she doesn't need to be looked down on, because let's face it, we've all made our mistakes. 

It's actually quite the opposite. 

    She needs to know she's loved. That she is valued beyond belief. That her laugh and her smile, her walk and her talk, were perfectly formed in the likeness of God. No, it goes farther then the eye can see, she needs an out stretched hand and someone to call. And she's in serious need of a hug fest! She needs her dad to remind her how precious and innocent she is. She needs her dad to be the spiritual leader of the house. She needs her dad to take care of her mom so that she can feel safe. She needs more then a house, she needs a home. Bottom line, she needs her dad. I think she may need to push the refresh button on her relationship with God, but I'm by no means judging her. She needs love where love is lacking. She doesn't need a boy or a man, a college degree or a 5 year plan. She needs to know that telling her parents might suck, but she has to start somewhere. She simply needs to know God smiles down on her in the morning and still has open arms, waiting for her to run to Him. He never leaves, we always do the walking away. She needs a kiss and some good influences. True friends that will stop talking about her behind her back. She need to be shown every good thing about her, because it will surpass any negative thing anyone has said about her. She needs to know the person in the mirror is not who she wanted to be. She needs to know that insecurity is natural, that uncertainty is inspiring, she needs to know her heart is 

worth admiring 

So I pray God, that if it's in Your will, you will keep her from leaving on the trip. That you will make her feel sick every time she wants to be fulfilled by something other than You God. Continue to show Grace on her and myself Lord. 

We all need your grace. 

I give everything over to You Lord