I had a revelation! Although it has been several gradual realizations that have culminated into this one “Awe” moment for me. I am so excited to share this with
you.
While at work I decided to put on a
Youtube video of Christine Caine while I
was finishing up a few projects. I clicked on a message that was 26 minutes
long, and began to work. Everything Christine was saying was absolutely
beneficial to me and was getting me amped while I sat at my desk. {I was attempting
to focus more on my work then on her message but she’s good!}Out of the 26
minutes it wasn’t until the last one minute that God used something she was
saying to completely confirm, affirm, encourage, challenge and excite my spirit.
My God is so faithful to graciously be answering my prayers. I have been
praying for vision and direction and guidance for where and what I am going to
be doing in this next season of my life. But listen, I haven’t just been
shooting prayers to the sky and hoping that God hears me. I’ve been praying
with diligence and a desperation and fervency. Not just prayers that imply that
I
want to hear from God, rather, I
need to hear from Him. I am desperate to
do what He has called me to do and my passion is overflowing. I just want it to
be able to leak into the areas that God has planned for my present and my
future. So here is what reached my heart from what Christine Caine was speaking
on.
Christine Caine told a story of her little girl and how she bought her daughter
a flashlight. While in Walmart, Christine put batteries into the flashlight and
as they were getting ready to pay, her little girl turned the flashlight on.
Since there was so many florescent lights in the store here daughter couldn’t
see the flashlights light in contrast to the other lights in the store.
Christine’s little girl looked up at her and yelled, “MOM, my light doesn’t
work in the light, we need to find a dark place.” It was then that Christine
turned to look at her daughter and completely paused. She stated, "
My daughter couldn’t see the light because of all the
other light in the store, which meant her light was ineffective in the midst of all of the
other light that there already was." Christine then challenged the audience {myself, via the Internet}on how
we should not be a people who are scared of the
DARK since we are called to be
the
LIGHT. We can only truly be seen or useful if we venture into the dark
places of our generation where our light {By God’s Grace} can be distinguished
from our surroundings.
I have been told from my Pastors Erica & Jason Parrish that they really
believe that I am called to the dark places of the world. Since Erica, Jason and myself have a
pretty extensive track record and have been in relationship and ministry
together for 7 years, I trust their words and I know they saw and still do see a vision for me. I
have heard their words when they have told me this over the years, but it
hasn’t been until recently that I have actually experienced what they really
believed I am called to. It has turned from “Pastor Erica & Jason believe
this,” into, I believe that this is truly my calling - To go into the darkest
places of God’s world, where not everyone is privileged to go into and to bring
God’s light. A light that is so piercing and bright that not even the people
who are bound tightly to their sin can deny it. A light that demands freedom,
restoration, physical healing, spiritual wholeness and the acceptance and acknowledgment of Jesus Christ.
I don’t know where my platform will be. Who God will have me build relationships with or how I will connect
with, or the encounters I will find myself in. I can’t even imagine what I will
face and the fight that will rise up in me. But I have caught the vision God
has been slowly laying out in front of me, and I am running with His truth and
promises over my life. I am thrilled to be living this life. Through all the
hardships and trials I still understand the worth fighting to make God’s name
famous! I love my God!
My goal is to dispel the darkness with my little bit of light.
Matthew 5:13-16
13 “You
are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be
made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out
and trampled underfoot.
14 “You
are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither
do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its
stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the
same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds
and glorify your Father in heaven.
I give everything over to You Lord
